Friday, October 14, 2011

How do I love thee?

....let me count the ways.

Hmmm, sadly if I counted the ways I loved God, or rather showed my love it would most likely be in the single digits.

But one of the things I do love most about God is His tenacity, that tireless effort He puts forth to teach us, show us & mold us. So often I find myself faced with a "theme" during certain seasons of life, something that just keeps popping up over & over and you know it's the big guy saying "Hello! It's time to learn this now..."

A few months back our preacher, Lance, did a sermon on the "overlooked" sins, the sins of our heart rather than the ones of our flesh, and though he didn't mention it, my greatest sin is neglect. Neglect of my relationship with my God & my Jesus. The theme that had been following me lately is why is this so easy and so prevalent?

I think about days that I have plans to meet a friend for lunch, or an appointment with someone. I don't miss those short of sickness or massive injury, regardless of how tired or busy I am, so why is it so easy to blow off prayer, time in the word or just hanging out with my Savior? Why do I look at that as a choice and yet other commitments are set in stone?

The easy answer is "it's Satan!" and while there may be a level of validity in that, the sad thing is he certainly never has to work too hard, I so easily choose to sleep in rather than get up to pray, watch TV instead of reading Bible or any sort of study, or to just do whatever I feel like doing rather than what I need to be doing.

So what's the solution? Well when I figure it out I'll pass it on, but I think ultimately it's just doing it. Making a first step, asking Him for help, for strength, the ability to commit....